As I was explaining my condition to the doctor, on how I vomitted couple of times, the doctor interpolated.

Doc: Pregnant kot.
Me: nope, can't be.

The dear doctor fell into oblivion and continued.

Doc: When did you get your last "you-know-what"?
Me: I can't be pregnant. tak kahwin lagi!

Then she flipped my medical record card. And walaa, status: kahwin.
And I accepted that with equanimity. If it wasn't for my viral fever.

i missed it. thankfully, there's a replay tomorrow at 6 pm. but am trying to manage my time for that. will be leaving for kLia to send a colleague, leaving for Newcastle. for good. Decision decision. It's after all, my call.



"Happy Birthday to my Dearest Mom."

How nice would it be if I can manage to dispense with all the dramas and drunken emotions of life. and live my life in One Tree Hill.

Bittersweet.

Last night, my Beloved and i figured out the monstrous truth about our hamsters, chippy & snowball. It so happened that chippy was all along a male, and we blindly thought that he was a 'she'. Now they're courting and chippy's basically a recalcitrant. Check this out, hamsters mate and gets pregnant for only 16 days. give birth and re-mate time and time again. There's going to be lotsa baby hamsters in too short a time. and i'll be floundering around. Well, I miss my little friends when I'm away from home. Come to think of it, it really isn't half bad to have their babies is it?

In hindsight!

I wish I never did quit playing the piano. One's talent is of course, extendable but i quit even when my ability to play was nowhere near aptness. I can scarcely remember my teacher. A grouchy lady she was. But that doesn't alter the fact that she was a flawless performer and i conversely, was flawed. Not only was playing the piano tough, it never piqued my interest. Now, how I wish I could play the piano with amazing dexterity. Or at least, play 'happy birthday'! *sigh*

Larger than Life

Dear Steve,

You talk incessantly akin to a parrot, only that it's your least favourite animal. You sit astride on rescued crocodiles, only to find them snapping back at you. You live a life befitting a universal phenomenon, a renown naturalist without a doubt. In a flicker of a second, talk became talked and sit became sat. I was reduced to tears on my way home, only to have people staring at me. They must have figured that i just ended a tattered relationship, heartbroken as can be. But it's your passing that left me heartbroken, encircled with deepest grieve. You know, it doesn't take a genius to tell how much i ADORE you, i don't even know where to begin. I can't imagine the loss felt by Terri and your beloved Bindi & Bob, deeply distraught they must be. But there's one thing i am sure of, that you will be sorely missed by many. May God bless You & Your Darlings.

Convocation.. but not Graduation?





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The pictures say it all. dear Melati, congratulations on being conferred the oh coveted gold award. or was it golden award, or gold medal..? something lah. Comprehensive excellence, not. Congrats Graduates '06.

Selamat Pengantin Baru to my dear cousin, Fazrina and Husband, Erwan.

It was a jolly occasion and joy, the hall was permeated with so much Love. Didi alias hosted, bob af2 sang, Nona tv3 came. "Don't use this as a benchmark" said my Dad to my Beloved. Stunned He was. One way to go is: "simple yet elegant" continued Dad. We exchanged smiles. Truthfully, i can't wait :)

rows and flows of angel hair
and ice cream castles in the air
and feather canyons everywhere
i've looked at clouds that way
but now they only block the sun
they rain and snow on everyone
so many things i would have done
clouds got in my way

i've looked at clouds from both sides now
from up and down, and still somehow
it's cloud illusions i recall
i really don't know clouds at all

moons and junes and ferris wheels
the dizzy dancing way that you feel
as every fairy tale comes real
i've looked at love that way
but now it's just another show
you leave 'em laughing when you go
and if you care, don't let them know
don't give yourself away

i've looked at love from both sides now
from give and take, and still somehow
it's love's illusions i recall
i really don't know love
really don't know love at all

tears and fears and feeling proud
to say "i love you" right out loud
dreams and schemes and circus crowds
i've looked at life that way

but now old friends they're acting strange
and they shake their heads
and they tell me that i've changed
well something's lost but something's gained
in living every day

Hayley Westenra is a good listen.

Friday 13th

It was a Friday, at least two years ago. All i can say is, there may be thousands of people surrounding us, but it takes only One to bring a smile on our face in moments of desolation. Conversely, it takes only One to impair our judgment with rage. This is what i'd like to call, true Love taking its course.

But, in paving our way to the lane of eternal bliss, there are bound to be thorns. Just step on it, and bleed if you may. The pain will definitely subside and go away. Ahmad Feisal, this much I Love You. May i not be the thorn for You!